56||It hurts

You know what is the scariest thing?

What is scary? For a child it's a ghost, for a juvenile it must be the fear of falling behind, for an adult his own set boundaries beyond which they can't see. But, for me it the feel of the feeling I am having. The suffocating loop hooked upon me by my own self, which is getting hard to put away. Worst ignored.

When you stop desiring the things you once wanted. The scariest part is when you have that thing before you but you want to be anywhere but near it. There was not a moment where I have not begged for Reyansh presence, not a night where I have not cried for him.

Look at me, now. I want to hide in the deepest corner of darkness, where I will not be reminded of what I am facing. My chin wobbled, tears threatened to spill and I had let it flow. Just like always, pathetic self of mine wants to show how he has hurts me.